I'm feeling rather gaurded and defensive towards other people lately. I'm feeling rather lonely, but I'm having a hard time getting myself to contact other people. When I do manage to come into contact with someone, my interactions with them feel off-kilter and evasive, like I can't give myself fully into what I'm doing with them.

It's strange living on my own again. Knowing that someone I knew well was in the next room was comforting, even if I wasn't exactly comfortable with that person in general. I slept well on my vaction too, because I slept every night in the houses of friends. Now I'm just with strangers, and I've been having a hard time sleeping. I feel very energetic, and it's mostly a positive feeling. But the lack of sleep is making the rest of my life more difficult.

Hopefully I'll start getting back into a regular schedule soon.