I had to stop taking the Risperdal.
First off, it was giving me really low blood preassure.
Second of all, it was making me too comfortable with life.
I was no longer taking care of myself, because no matter what I did I felt like it was just fine.
Consequently, I pushed my body too far, with the drinking, the caffienateing, and the lack of sleep.
I became very sick.
Not conincidently, I only started to get better when I could feel the Risperdal wearing off.
So I have to quit taking it.
That's just fine with me.
It was making me feel like an alien.
Not human.
I may be depressed in my everyday life, but at least I feel real, at least I feel solid, at least I feel connected.