For about four or five days now I've been feeling very discouraged when it comes to being social. I can't seem to get into the groove of it. I want to talk to people, but I have nothing to say. The things people say to me just leave me cold, and I have no reacting inspiration to share with them. Whenever I initiate something, it allways falls flat, and I get bored right away.

I think this is partially due to all the studying I've been doing lately. The only things I'm thinking about are things from books, which don't have a lot of relvence to people in general. It's a vicious cycle: The more I study, the less I talk to people. The less I talk to people, the more I study. The only way this cycle gets broken is when I get depressed from not interacting with other people, which makes it very difficult to study. So I'm forced to get my head out of a book for awhile.

But I did talk to the students in my morning class today. It was easy, becuase there was a lot of them, and I was able to just make occasional comments instead of having to be actively communicating all the time. I could be passive for the most part, and only be active when I felt like it. Maybe I'll have the courage to make small talk in my next class too. That should put me in a better mood.