Well, I'm starting to get used to this drug that I'm on, this Risperdal. It's starting to get to the point where I don't notice that I'm on it, like this feeling is just the way I am. One reason for this is because my body is adjusting itself to the presence of the drug, and Is blocking some of the effects (or so I imagine). Another reason is that I'm just adapting to it. I have a pretty short memory, in some ways, so this feeling isn't so much of a contrast to my "usual" feelings; it is my usual feeling.

I'm still having the hunger effects, which I'm indifferent to, but this has decreased as well. One very positive thing I've noticed is that I'm less afraid to wake up than I used to be. I was afraid to wake up before, because I noticed that when I didn't get enough sleep I would be much more likely to have a psychotic episode. While lack of sleep is still a problem, and will never be a good thing, I am dealing with lack of sleep better than before, seeing it less as a cause for alarm and more just a slight annoyance.

Also, I seem to be more comfortable talking with other people, especially strangers. I think this is because the fear that generally accompanies a thought that I should talk to someone has substantially diminished, and so there's less holding me back from acting on that idea.