Today...I am in a strange mood. Ok, more details: the things that I'm thinking are very negative and depressing (I hate myself, life is worthless, everything sucks, etc.), but the actual emotions I am feeling are very nice. I'm wearing a light pink shirt, and light tan khaki pants; I think that that almost perfectly describes my emotional state. I feel as though I'm wearing a light pink shirt and light tan khaki pants. And I am happy to be doing so. It's kind of a soft feeling, a glowing feeling. I'm not numb...just snuggly. And if I'm looking down on myself all the while, then what of it? That is not detracting from my pleasure.