Ok. It's uncomfortable confession time. Anyone out there who's had sex with me on a regular basis knows that I have a fetish that I'm not especially proud of. It's a somewhat common one, but I still feel kind of ashamed of it. My fetish is that I like to imagine that I'm having sex with my Dad. Like, an incest kind of thing. Most people would say this is gross, especially if they knew my Dad (I don't have any pictures of him, but the cover of this album cover looks so much like him that neither me nor my sisters can look at it without getting creeped out), but usually what I do is find some guy who's sort of good-looking and just pretend that he's my Dad. Other than that, I don't feel too guiltly about it, because the only person who's getting victimized in my fantasies and my role-plays is me, and if I want to be victimized then that's my right.

By the way, did you know that you can stick my screen name, "nearfalse", in a search engine and actually gets results that are actually about me, and not just about generating test data from a Boolean specification? It's true! If you type "nearfalse" into google.com, you can get little links to my blog, but you can also see a little comment I made on an album on amazon.com (am I starting to look obsessed with that site? I guess I kind of am), as well as a creepy comment I made on someone else's blog. Best of all, you can see that I have visited and created a screen name at a porn site devoted to amatuer incest. This is great! I'm so happy that I'm connected with that site, and that google has been kind enough to call that to people's attention!

Ok, it's true that I went to that site. I was looking for pictures of fathers and sons having sex with each other. I created the screen name, because you can't look at anything without it on that site. I went a couple of times about a year or a year and a half ago, but soon decided that it was not for me. For starters, the majority of the pictures on that site are devoted to straight sex, and that's just disturbing. Secondly, though most of the pictures are obvious fantasy, there are a couple that look very real, some of which are featuring people that really look like they're underage. I'm not down with that. My thing is for fantasy, not reality. I'm quite aware of how damaging this sort of thing is for people who are actually involved with it. Furthermore, it makes me sad to see people being oppressed. If I'm being oppressed it's just fine; in fact, I get off on it. To see other people being oppressed...unless the're obviously enjoying it, it's very depressing.

So, that's that. If anyone out there knows of a way for me to make it so that the incest thing does not come up in association with my name anymore, then please leave a comment below. I would greatly appreciate it.