Dreams Recurring

I am a 26 year old college student at Ohio State University (OSU). I am male, white, homosexual. If you want to know anything else, you'll just have to read the blog itself. The title comes from an old Husker Du song, though I did change it slightly. **ATTENTION** some of the entries in this blog contain sexually explicit material.

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Location: Columbus, Ohio, United States

Please read my blog, because, unlike most of the people on here, I really do keep up on it. It's not very stylish, my blog, but I do take it at least semi-seriously, and post regularly. Surely such perseverence and loyalty is worth something?

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Peaceful: No Dreams

Strange: I've been sleeping sooo much over the past two or three days, yet I don't remember a single dream. I think this is because a few days ago I had...some sort of emotional crisis, where I realized just how desperately inadequate I feel about my ability to succeed academecally, and how stressed out I feel. I almost cried, actually. It felt bad at the time, but overall it was positive: I've relaxed a lot since then, because a big part of my little breakdown was the realization that I couldn't live like this anymore, and that I needed to worry about my well-being first and my academics second. And so I have been doing just that, resting and making sure I stay calm an, and my academic work actually seems to be improving as a result.

But no dreams. I believe that this is because I finally dealt with a lot of my shit on the conscious level, and so, for now at least, there are no pressing issues that need to be worked out on the subconscious level, and hence my subconscious is now focused mainly on basic maintenance fuctions, such as cementing memories or forming connections between pieces of information, none of which are really striking or forceful enough to make my conscious mind take any notice.

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